Feeling bad

So my son Josh was so looking forward to being on the high school football team. I was excited for him to be on it. He also wanted to wrestle for the high school team this year. His dreams were shattered when he found out that he had torn all the ligaments in his right shoulder. He needed surgery, and recovery was at least 6 months.
This also meant that his summer was going to stink!! No scout camp and possibly no Pioneer Trek.
When the Dr. got into Josh's arm he discovered that it was worse than what they thought. So instead of 2 anchors in front and back they had to do 3 in each, this took his recovery to 12 months of nothing. He has to be so careful. They wouldn't even let him start thearpy for 5 weeks, which told us that it's a pretty bad surgery.
So since the surgery we have tossed the idea around about letting him go on Trek. We all want him to go, but we were going to keep an eye on him and see how he was doing.
Yesterday we had to tell them yes or no, I have prayed about it for weeks and haven't gotten any feelings at all. But watching Josh wake up with so much pain that he couldn't sleep, and going to the freezer to get an ice pack to get the pain to stop, made me feel like he shouldn't go. He hasn't been on pain meds for a couple of weeks now which is good. But there aren't going to be ice packs on trek.
When Big daddy and I talked to him he was heart broken. But he understood that YES he could go and have a wonderful time and nothing could happen to him, but then again, he could go and something bad could happen that would destroy every thing that was just done to his shouler, that even if we re did it, it wouldn't be as good as the first surgery, and could screw up his shoulder for life.
So I am planning fun things for Josh and I to do while Bubba and his friends are gone. I think it will be a good week.