So Sunday the lesson was on Friends. This subject is hard for me. Let me tell you why. As a young girl, I had 1 Best friend, her name was Julie. Sure I had other friends, but Julie and I were attached at the hip. We had been friends since we were like 5. We did everything together and boy did we get into trouble. I was older than her, and was on my way to high school where I met the love of my life and sad to say, but Julie and I went different ways.
In High School I didn't care to have many good friends, because the only one I hung out with was Josh. We had a ton of friends, but never hung out with any. I didn't care for all the drama that went along with having girl friends.
Soon we graduated got married and I started looking for someone I could talk to, besides Josh. I wanted a Best Friend, or friends. After a couple of moves we bought a house in bountiful, in the same ward I grew up in. Out of the blue I was invited to go to scrapbooking with some friends. These friends were the popular ones in the ward. I have never been so excited in my life. But as I would look at this group of friends, I would wonder how I fit in with them. Why do they like me. The group got smaller and smaller.
Any ways to make a long story short. My little family had some issues that we had to deal with. We wanted to keep them quiet, but when people got wind of what was going on they decided that it would be fun to spread it around the group. I am not sure who started it, and I don't care. but it hurt. I had never felt so betrayed.
It has been over 2 years, and I still don't care to be close to people. I don't care to have many friends. Out of that group, I am freinds with 2. 2 That stood bye me and made sure I knew that they were there for me. But to tell you the truth it is hard to trust people now.
I had 2 people who became my friends, who were there for me through it all. They saw the good days and the bad. They didn't judge, they just were there to let me know it would be ok.
One thing that has helped me get over this, is that the lady that gave the lesson gave me some advice a while ago. She said this is how I look at life. I have this circle of people that I care about, and they care about me. If someone says something to me out side of those people I don't even think twice about it.
So this is my question for all of you who read this. How do you let down your gaurd to let New people into your life. How do you get passed feeling like this?
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I have to say I have friends that I see but I wouldn't share a lot with, and then I have 1 maybe 2 who know the ins and outs of my life....Girls can be nasty. It seems most of my friends are couples that Tom and I both hang out with....because he really is my best friend...I feel lucky to have him....You are such a good person...people love you...Now that I think about it I think I am a gaurded person until I really know who you are...It seems to take a long time to really get to know someone that way....Good Luck I don't really have any great advice but we sure love you a lot!!!
Choose wisely. That's what I think. And, then I've heard that saying, "Be the kind of friend you would like to have."
You are a sweet person, so good people will come into your life.
It's hard not to be guarded, but you can't be close to people if you don't let them in, right?
I think it's worth a little risk. Just like with anything, there's both good and bad sides. You just have to focus on the good.
That's my two cents.
love you Heidi!
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