Being Daddy's Little Girl

I have always been my Daddy's Little Girl. And this last past coulple of months I have struggled because I don't want to hurt my dads feelings.
After six years of not talking to my Bio Mom, I have started to have a relationship with her again. When we went our seperate ways six years ago it was all due to the lack of maturity. Now we both know that we need to talk to each other about things that are bugging us. Any way, my dad is not so excited about this. He holds things in forever and has a hard time getting over things. So I hate hurting him, but I want to be honest with him also. My mom is a great person as well as my dad. I sat down with my dad and told him that no matter what I will always love him and the only person that can change that is him. He doesn't realize that he has made his life the way it is. He is never happy, or positive and that kills me. He is such a great person but he doesn't see that either. He says that he has been hurt one too many times and he is sick of it. So I asked him if he knew why I went up and huged a lady that I was having some problems with, and told her how sorry I was for hurting her? He said because you don't want to be like me! And I know it hurt him but I said yes. I don't want to hold grudges and hate people and become a misarable person. I told my dad that there is one time that I remember him happy and laughing, it was when we went up to Wanship to hang out as a family. We were all taking turns of this little raft that was tan,brown and orange. Well it was my turn to go out with my dad and I was so excited. He sat at one end and I sat at the other. His feet were by me up on the sides and mine were in the middle towards him. Out of the blue I just started playing THIS LITTLE PIGGY. OH how he laughed. I love to hear my dad laugh. I will always remember that day.
Any way with my dad I told him that I am going to keep him out of the relationship with my mom and I will keep my mom out of our relationship.
I have to say that my mom has been so supportive of me having a relationship with my Bio mom. She knows that I love her and that we have a great relationship. She knows that she is a great grandma and that my kids love her to death. I love my mom for that. She is so positive and she is just a great person. She has always been that way and I know that she has a huge heart. Her grandkids are her life.
You know after having all this stress in my life, I am so glad that my husband and I have made our marriage the best. When we were young(18) and doumb, we had our problems we didn't like each other that much. But I looked at him and said you know you can do just about anything to me I'm not leaving I refuse to do to my kids what my parents did to me. And from that day one we have strived to make out marriage THE BEST. I don't think parents realize what they do to their kids. I know that I stressed making dad happy, and wondering if my mom was dead, and where she was. It was not happy . Any way things are good now. I am jsut glad that I know that they both are ok.