Sometimes you just have to do it

I have spent the last couple of days in Wyoming with my Honey. I hate leaving the kids, but I know that Josh and I need some time away, and although he is working it still give us a chance to be together and chat about things.
Our relationship has been a little stressed and we can both feel it. I am pretty sure it has a lot to do with the Devil trying his hardest to break a good thing up. It has been 5 months since things went crazy for us, and I thought I was doing great, I thought Josh was doing great, but the devil has his way of putting things in our heads that make bad feelings.
I enjoy our trips we take. We don't listen to music, we talk. I know that is kind of weird, but we started that years ago, when our radio was stolen out of our car. We learned to talk. It is hard to talk about our latest issues with out emotion. I try but still get choked up, and feel that huge lump in my throat and can hardly talk.
Its hard to express to someone how you thought you had the perfect marriage. Then you come to find out that you don't. You know that you love your spouse and you want things to get back to the way they were, but it is hard to trust again, hard to put feelings aside. Hard to think that someone who loves you so much could hurt you so bad. How do you start to have that relationship that you once had when thoughts just keep popping into your head?
This is what we talk about. I think it is healthy. He expresses his thoughts and feelings and so do I. I know we are going to make it, it is just going to take time.
We have been talking a lot about moving so that we can put the past behind us. The hard part for me is my kids and their friends and their leaders in our ward. They have awesome leaders and I don't know if they will have that if we move.
But I know that we need to move so that we can save a good thing. Its too hard for all of us to be reminded of it every sunday.
Time to go out side our comfort zone.