Tuesday, September 27, 2011

If they only understood

As a parent I think the worst feeling is knowing that one of your children is struggling, and no matter what you do,or say, or how much advise you give them, how much you love them, or how much you go to bat for them, they still hurt. They can't move past it. They dwell on it so much that they are making them self miserable. To the point where they do stupid things. They don't take the time to step back and see how their actions affect everyone around them.
When I became a parent my # one goal was to have a great relationship with my kids. A relationship that was open, where they could tell me anything, and know that I am going to love them no matter what they do, or how bad they screw up. I didn't become a mom to turn my back on them when they messed up, or to disown them because they made a bad choice. Or to rub their nose in that mistake for the rest of theirs lives.
My kids mean the world to me, I would give up my life for them if that's what they needed. If that would make it so they could live a happy life.
I wish they understood how excited I was to become a mommy, and how much they meant to me. I wish they could see inside my heart. To see how fast it pumped when I talked about them, or thought about them.
My kids are my life, and when they are hurting I hurt. I want to help them in any way I can. I want them to know that I love them no matter what. For always and forever. To infinity and beyond!! For Eternity. There is nothing they could do to change that.

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