I am happy

So the other evening Josh and I had a big long talk. He asked me if I was Happy? I said yes, why? Well you just never seem happy, you don't smile much, and you just don't seem to be happy.

So we chatted,and shared our feelings about family, work, and life. His job is stressful, on top of that you have church callings. And so he is a busy guy. I have been telling a difference in him, his job is taking a toll. But he loves it. He is a good guy to put up with all the crap he does. He hardly ever brings it home.

For me I always bring it home, cause that is where my job is. My never ending job of being a mom/bad guy. That is how it is in our home. I am the one that harps on the kids for chores, grades, being nice to each other, not playing with friends on the week days, and having the kids talk back to me because they don't think life is fair. It's hard for me to not be grouchy. So when Josh walks in and sees me harping on the kids, he thinks I am in a bad mood. Sometimes YES I am, I have had enough of the crap, and other times I am just fine. It's hard to turn off the mom switch, until the kids are all in bed, and by then I am tired and just want to relax.
So Yes, the answer to Josh's question, is Yes I am happy!! Sometimes life throws me a curve ball, but I am happy. I have a wonderful husband that most the time I don't deserve, and wonderful kids who sometimes deserve a better mom.