Why I don't go to the Doctor!!

Well lets see nothing is really wrong with me. I may have a little infection, which I am taking some pills for which I hate, and now that I am taking pills my body is rebelling. I have had a swollen ear for almost a week. The pain is so bad the only way to describe it, is that it is worse than a tooth ache. I haven't cried this hard for a loooong time. I had Josh give me a blessing, prayed my guts out for the pain to go away. My prayer was answered. SO I called and canceled my appointment because I was feeling GREAT!! This morning I woke up about 4 with that same horrible pain in my other ear NICE! So I called the Doctor back he fit me it today. I must have so sinus infection or ear infection. All I know is I haven't seen this many Doctors In 13 15 years. I think my body is falling apart. For now I headed back to bed to keep heat on my ear, and to leave it alone(yeah right me leave something alone that is bugging me NEVER!) I am going to try tho.