Friday, April 16, 2010

Scatter Brained

I haven't written for a few days, because I don't know what to say, or write. I have had a lot on my mind the last couple of weeks.
I have been trying to decided what to do about my situation with my brother. I love him to death, and we have been good friends all growing up, I mean he lived with me for a while. But he is acting so immature and selfish that it just blows me away.
A couple of weeks ago Kim and the girls came and had a pizza date with us. We all had a good time. Then things start happening between them and he calls me and says that he kind of feels betrayed, and doesn't want us to see them any more.
I was so mad when I got off the phone. I can't ever talk to him and tell him how I feel, and so I wrote him and e-mail, and I wasn't very nice. I just told him that this time it wasn't about him, that it was about his girls. I won't get into the whole thing, but that is how I feel.
I grew up not knowing my Bio mom's family, let alone her, and I hated her family for not trying. I mean no one ever tried to come and see us except on Uncle who liked to talk to my dad.
I think I am being hard on PJ, because I know how his daughters feel,Abandoned! We have all tried to talk to him and tell him that he needs to think about his girls, and all he can think about is himself. I told him that we as adults always make time for the things we want to do.
So I think I have totally ruined my relationship with him, I pray that that's not what happens, I pray he wakes up and realizes that we all love him dearly, but he brought those kids into this world, and he needs to take care of them emotionally, physically and monetarily.

2 comments:

Christy Woolston said...

YEP! And maybe you're the only one who will be able to help him see that. You had to try.

Love ya!

kelly said...

Hi Heidi. I'm proud of you for doing that. I know how much you love your brother, but in my opinion you are doing the right thing. Innocent kids shouldn't suffer because of adult choices. And those girls will be lucky to have you in their lives!