Monday, May 5, 2008

Family

You know I just don't get it. Why when they are feeling bad do they try to make others feel bad? They are my family and I will always love them, but I don't have to put up with the crap. I am not the one to blame here.I guess because I am the only one that comes around any more lets make her feel bad, and then she won't come around any more and we will make her feel bad about it. I am doing the best I can and I am sorry that isn't enough for you. You aren't the one having to visit 3 families every holiday! You aren't the one who has to have 2 birthdays for your kids. You aren't the one stressed about having blessings and baptisms because both sets of parents are going to be there, and you have NO idea what might go on. Do you have any Idea how stressful our lives are? Or are you only thinking about yourself? Do you Honestly think that I go out of my way to hurt your feelings? Well maybe we should all step back and look at the big picture! Not one of you is more important to me than the other. I love you all, and I will always love you all. I am doing the best I can, and I am sorry if that isn't good enough for you. Maybe you should put yourself in my shoes. But the whole conversation yesterday seemed very selfish. It was all about you and what you aren't getting. But you know I never remember telling you how you screwed up in raising us kids. No we lived our lives and tried to never bring it up. There are a ton of things that we could say to you to make you feel bad, but you know I don't think that will ever happen. I always tell you that you did the best you could. I am sorry that there is conflict and feelings but please remember that I am not the one that got divorced. And I am doing the best I can in a difficult situation.

1 comment:

Aislinn said...

I think that you're doing great, Heidi! I love you - I think that you're a wonderful person and that you always put others first! You keep being the mom and wife that you're supposed to be and don't worry about others - it will all work out in the end!