Sitting here thinking

Today has been kind of a lazy day. I have been sitting here thinking about my life. Thinking about my how my life has changed so much. I can remember being my sons age, and having a best friend named Julie. We did everything together. We got in so much trouble.Then I met Josh and we dated for 3 years. Any way life seemed so easy. Now I am married almost 13 years, and have 4 wonderful kids. Life is good, but the world is so bad.I don't remember things being this bad when I was a kid. I wonder if my kids even have a chance. You hope that you are teaching them everything not to do and the things that they should do. My oldest was just saying to me " well when you were my age you were walking every where with your friend, You don't let us do anything." That seems so mean. I just think I worry way too much. I hope that when my kids are older they will come to me and say mom I am so glad that you made us do chores, and that you were so mean.
I do have to say the other day I was looking at my little baby, who will be 5 on the 6th of May. It makes me sad that she has grown up. I was thinking about the day that I had her, and wonder if my grandpa was reading her stories in heaven. He died on April 29, 2003 and Mary was born on may 6th. I know that she met him. I love to think about stuff like that.