Thursday, March 6, 2008
Things happen for a reason.
I have been thinking about this virus that cleaned my hard drive. I had my journal on there. I had been writing about a sitiation that has been going on in my little family's life. I had been keeping track of the counseling that one of my sons has been going to, and the things that his counsler has talked to me about. And every friday faithfully I would write in this Journal. Well the virus erased it all. Now thinking about it, it was good. Did I really need to relive all that. Did I want my son to ever find it and reopen a sad time in his life. When I wrote about forgetting and forgiving. I think it is good. It's not a time in my life that I need to remember. I have my BLOG, and it is much more Positive. I think being positive is a good thing. I know that through this whole situation, I have tried to stay positive, and it has helped us grow closer as a family. It has strengthened My marragie, which I thought was already strong. I think that sometimes we just sit, and if things are ok, we just keep doing what we have been doing, nothing bad, but not moving forward in outlives. Then something smacks us in the face, that wakes us up and makes us realize that maybe this happend for me, not my son. I can't tell you how many times I thought that everything in my life was great, when I was slacking in so many areas. Then this event happened, and it woke me up. Was I doing everything I could to teach my kids right from wrong? Was I going to church every week so that they could learn about right and wrong?, or were we just living life as the days came and went. This event happened for me. I have changed so many things in the last past 6 months. The main thing is patients, and not reacting to a situation the minute that it happens. You need to think before you act. I am also more positive, and believe that in the church there is no middle, {funny that I thought there ever was}, You have to choose Your either on the right path, or the wrong path. The world is so wicked these days that if we are inbetween our kids don't have a chance. So I am grateful that I was smacked in the face and woken up to what I should be doing.
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Way to put a positive spin on a bad event! I wish I could erase my 'mental hard drive' sometimes. Just parts of it anyway.
I used to write all of my crappy feelings down, seal them in an envelope and save them to burn at a little ritual I had for myself. I don't have time to do such things lately.
loves and kisses to you.
It is good to be shaken up a bit every once in a while. It is a good wake up call and helps us to refocus our priorities. It is good to go through your family inventory, so to speak, every few months or so to see if you are on the track you want to be on. Shake it up yourself and see if your where you want to be. Cut out the "good" stuff and replace it with the "best" stuff. Keep it up Heidi...you're awesome!
This is from my mom she couldn't get it to work so I put her comment on.
I was going to leave a comment today on your blog but I couldn’t get it to work. I wanted to let you know how proud I am of you!! I thank our Heavenly Father every day for you and for your little family. I am so thank-full that He sent you, Tom, P.J. and your Dad to me. I may not have been the best Mom and I am so thank-full that I had Grandma & Grandpa to help me where I was lacking in so many parental skills-especially where I had to work full-time to provide insurance and money to keep our family together. You are such an inspiration to me for all the things that you do for everyone!! I get so excited when you stop by to see me at work. It means a lot that you take time to make my day!! I appreciate your patience with your Dad and I keep praying that someday he’ll realize how important the gospel needs to be in his life so that he and I can be together for eternity. Sometimes I get really depressed about Amanda and the path that she has chosen in regards to the church, and then I go to church and see you and your little family and how wonderful you are doing and it makes me feel that I may not be a complete failure. Even though Dad may not have come and gone to church with us when you guys where little I hope that me taking you to church every week did help. I do love you and hope you know how important you are to me!!
Love ya, Mom
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