Why?

For my whole life I have been frustrated at my mom not being there for me and my two brothers. But just a few days ago I asked myself, WHY!!. Why have I been so mad? All I can say about it is that with the way that my mom was raised, . Her mom wasn't a mom to her. Her mom used to chase them around with knifes and bats So I think my mom didn't want to be like that so she left. I know in a lot of ways things were hard and in the long run she left to make our lives easier.
Anyway back to the other day. I realized that I didn't need to be mad, and all the time I am getting mad for having people judge me, and I am judging her. I had a great life! I lived with my grandpa and grandma my whole life. They were like my parents. My dad remarried and I had a mom that treated me good, so why was I so mad. I don't think mad is the right word, I think I was sad. But still it wasn't like my life was horrible. I played soccer and the piano. I had a good life. I wasn't being tossed back and forth every other weekend. I had a stable life. I ran into my Bio-Mom this weekend and it was nice to see her, and it felt good when she huged me. It was so nice to talk to her. Eveyone needs to let the past be the past and what happened 28yrs ago let it go. You can't let the past rule your life, you have to forgive and forget.