Family

Today I talked to my Brother and Sister-in-Law, They live in South Carolina. It was so nice to hear from them. Dan is my Brother, We aren't blood, but we should have been. He has treated me like a little sister since I was like 8. He has always been there for me, I look up to him so much, and wish that we lived closer. He has the biggest heart, and he is such a great person. He recently found his birth mom after years of searching. I am so excited for him. I hope that he gets to know her.
When I started having a relationship with my birth mom, it was neat to see that she liked the same things that I did, our taste in clothes was the same, we both loved to tole paint, and both are very crafty. But one thing that I couldn't get passed was that she left me. I was about 2 1/2 when my dad and mom got divorced. My mom was in and out of my life until I was about 7 then she took off and moved. I would get a letter once a year, but I just never understood why. So that made the relationship a little hard. She wanted me to trust her and let her babysit my kids and let them sleep over, things like that, and I wanted her to be the mom, and want to see me every day and put me first before her sister, and always want to see me, like my grandma . I see my grandma twice a week, we just sit and talk. But there have been times in my life where I have seen my grandma everyday for 5-6 hours. I never felt like that with my mom. I always felt like she would rather be with her sister, or that her husband was bothered that I was there. Well I can't say never, but a majorty of the time, And when her and her sister would alway give me advise on how to raise my kids it was hard for me. I didn't want to listen to a person who walked out on me. So needless to say , we no longer have a relationship. I run into her every now and then at my brother Pj's house and we talk, so that is good. but we don't have a relationship.
Any way I just wanted to tell Dan that I am happy and excited for him. He has worked so hard to find her.
While we are talking about Dan, I can remember, when I went to live with him in California, and how much fun I had with him. He let me drive home from Mc donalds. I had a great time with him. He also took me for a walk because he was concerned about me and my boyfriend, this is when I was 16, he told me to be careful and if I needed to talk to call him. He said some other stuff also. And one of the hardest calls for me to make was when I called to tell him I was pregnant, and that I was getting married. He never got mad at me, he just loved me, he came up for my wedding, and he came to the hospital when I had my baby. Who he has always loved. My sons both adore him. I am so glad that he is my brother.